No More

I say no more.

Stay cool, all.

Isaac.

Beautiful Mind

When I go into town to do some light shopping and etc, I usually take the bus in, and in those trips I usually get to see the usual amount of odd people; Mental Cases, Drugfucks, Natural mean ass fat people, older people trying to act young by borrowing a Racoons Makeup kit (goes for the young also), and also young people with a level of mental retardation.

It’s the last one that I’m about to explain out that caught me this trip around on the local transport.

The kid was only around 15 or 16, good looking handsome lad, but with a mind so scrambled that he could barely construct a sentence without some very obvious pain.

Even through his Grandmother couldn’t understand what he was trying to say and kept asking him “What was that darling?”, I could understand the very first line he attempted to say: “When’s Dad coming with his car”, he was lucid in saying it, but just very scrambled in his head.

It usually just warrants me a passing glance when I see people like this, but when I took the bus back home on the way back, the Grandmother and Kid were taking it back also, and that’s when I kept thinking: If there was such a force like God in this world, why would he create such a normal looking, normal walking, normal physically in control child but with a brain that could not comphrehend to do the smallest of chores without the need of 24/7 attention and help?”

For such a Beautiful mind this child had, I was overwhelmed with such a sadness that it scared on a level so deep inside that I didn’t know I even know what the emotion was until I sat down back at home.

For all the advances Science has made in this world, it will never be able to help or fix what is misfiring in this child’s brain, he is locked in a world that cannot be solved, and deep inside, this young lad knows that, and if he truely knows it, does he want to continue to live inside such a mind that he can’t express or control on his own?

There is no God looking over us, for if there was, he would never of created such a Beutiful Person only to have it lack the very essence that makes us complete as “Human”; a mind to give us Freewill.

I’m not very sure why I’m writing this, or if it makes very much sense at all, but it has stayed on my mind since yesterday morning and I felt to write it out to share it, there was a lot more I was going to add to this, but my own mind can’t bring sentences together from memory the way I think it out.

My own memory and mental health is a small price to pay as I did it to myself, but for the Child who had no choice, he will never be able to string a sentence together without so much pain as to the level of crying.

I’m not religious for obvious reasons, but when seeing it, I wanted to pray for him, but then remembered; Why should I pray to a God who did this in the first place?

Isaac.

First Rocket Motor Test: Misfire/Concept

I did my first Rocket Motor test tonight, it consisted of a sheet of molded Aluminium I salvaged from a Laptop CD-ROM Drive, a thin Rachnet Nut Nozzle and some Heat-Resistent Sealant I made myself.

The test was as expected, it didn’t work so well, but that was to be expected because I was only trying to see if a different type of fuel I made would work better then the Black Powder I used before…and it did work better.

Half and half it worked until my nozzle heated up and melted the seal and shot out, but heck, it made for a nice little vid:

Ahwell, shit happens I guess, can’t expect to get it right first time on.

Laters.

Isaac.

Rocket Man Part 2

Just a small update from the Previous post.

All Mixtures arrived this morning, but because I’m busy with other things I only did one small mix/test just to see if what I ordered was up to scratch…and well it is:

Remind me to repaint my window ledge.

Isaac.

Rocket Man

I say Hola to all!

Okay so it’s been a little quiet lately I see, and well there is a reason for that…erm…there isn’t anything to actually report, my life is kind of dull at the moment and yeah, nothing to post.

But to skip to it I’ve decided to add a post anyways, it’s related to some hobby work I have been doing the past 6months or slow….: Hybrid Rocket Plane (Model one that is).

All blueprints and schematics have been done up of it, and really the last part of my project to finish before I can actually test it is to make and perfect a Rocket Fuel of my liking, and to tell you the truth the Rocket Fuel part isn’t as easy as I first thought.

Oh, I know how to make it, hands on experience on making all types of Pyrotechnics since I was a kid…but making an Explosive fuel to make something go “UP” instead of “KA-FUCKING-BOOM” is quite a different matter.

At the moment I have settled on 2 different types of fuels:

Potassium Permangante + a Mixture of 70% Hydrogen Peroxide (Highly explosive and the 2 have to be seperated until the launch of the Rocket)…(Got the idea from a project we did in Year 6 when we mixed Potassium Permangante and Glycerine into a Volcano to make it erupt )

Or just Black Powder (Gun Powder): Potassium Nitrate + Sulphur + Carbon (Charcoal).

I’ve just ordered the mixtures for the Black Powder, the hardest part to order was the Potassium Nitrate as it is the main Chemical to use in a hell of a lot of high grade explosives. DON’T ASK ME WHERE TO GET IT, if you need to ask, then you don’t know what you’re doing or just a kid…probably both.

Anyways, once everything I have ordered is finally delivered to me (week or so), I’ll updated with a post with the Blue Prints and some photos/videos of me blowing myself up making my fuel. (Am I joking…HAHAHAHAHAHAHA, no)

Yo’ Low’, Laters.

Isaac.

Zee Moon, Part II

Partly continuing off from my last post with the lone Moon photo I took, I’ve got acouple more shots to share that I took late evening yesterday.

These shots were originally color, but I converted them over to Grey-Scale because it gave me better resolution of the Moons features.

This isn’t a Full-Moon, but because I didn’t zoom past the telescope eyepiece on my cam it just looks that way.

Click each Image for Full-Size.

Isaac.

Ah zee Moon

Finally a near clear sky decided to swing my way the other night for the first time since I bought a new Telescope, so I decided to see if my Camera was up to the work of taking Astro photos.

Take in mind that this is only a photo of one, the bats in the digicam decided to die on one photo, and I had to handle it with a shaking hand because it was 4C at 6AM..way too cold, I’m currently constructing a Camera Mount to connect it to my telescope so I can take sharp photos, but for now, atleast I know it works fine with my Canon.

Now in reallife, I’m still recovering, slowly but still progressing good, but with one little not so good thing.

When I was rushed via Ambulance to 2 different Hospitals and was in a Coma for several days, I still had my Contact Lenses in all of that time, when I came to from the Coma, I still had them in and neither the Doctors nor the Nurses decided to take them out, the end result of that was that they bonded to my Cornea, it took me a day to removed them and about a litre of Saline, but I thought it was all fine afterwards…

After some pretty bad pain with my right eye for a several weeks it all went away, but alas the pain did not the damge, when I went to see my optometrist yesterday for a checkup, found I had severe Cornea scarring caused by an infection because the Lenses were left, the cut in my cornea healed, but the infection didn’t clear up causing severe scarring, and now, I can’t fucking wear Contact Lenses anymore and the vision in my right eye is screwed because of some idiot doctor who couldn’t see the blue tinted lenses in my eyes when they did Pupil dilation checks 5 times a day when I was in the Coma…fucking idiots.

Ahwell shit happens, I was 5 minutes away from death and went into Cardiac Arrest 3 times, I should really be greatful that I’m just alive lol

*Ends bitching session*

Later, all.

Isaac.

What Happened!?

Hey, Everyone.

I’m sorry for the recent downtime and the lack of communication in the last month, it hasn’t been a very good time for me lately.

I did something very stupid in June last month, and the end result of that stupidity ended up with me being locked away in a Mental Health Clinic for several weeks when I was released from the ICU while in Hospital.

The Clinic was so boring it wasn’t funny, they stuck me in there when I was Sane, I am pretty sure I left that place near Insane, I was crawling the walls near each day, it was that boring, lame, and just not the place for me to be that the only thing that kept me going each day was a book a good friend I met up with while in there gave me to keep my time occupied.

The cause for the downtime was that I wasn’t online to Authorise Paypal payments, and I guess that during that time my Server was cancelled by my old provider (I don’t blame them, non-payment by client with no communication. For the time being with them, they are a great server provider, I recommend them, XL-Host is very good), I’m currently up and running once again on a back up hosting account I’ve had for quite some time, it was still running because I accidently paid for 2months via Paypal before being locked up, thank god that I did.

I’m slowly recovering from what happened, not what happened in the Mental Health Clinic, but from my stay in the Intensive Care Unit in Hospital, my brain is pretty fried and I’m suffering from constant Brain Zaps and severe memory loss.

For now this is it, just wanted to keep you up to date.

Hope you’re all doing good!

Isaac.

Yes Yes, Still Alive

I aint really got very much to post about these days, life is pretty quiet at the moment, which is something I am enjoying very much so.

As for my job, I’m still currently employed by the same firm, instead of a full resignation I was asked if I would like to have a more “slower” position in another department instead of the 24/7 position I held before.

I accepted the offer and put off my resignation for probably…not sure yet.

Other then my job, really got not much more to post about, I’ll leave you with a photo of me at night, nothing special.

Hope everyone is doing great!

Isaac.

“Girl Overboard - The Love we Make” Lyrics and MP3

Edit: I would like to say Thank You to the people who provided in the comment section the name of the band that this song is in.

And a big Thank You to an Online mate of mine who looked at the comments and saw the band name and tracked down the Album it was on, he graciously downloaded it and sent the song over to me, which I will now provide over the bad MP3 I made before from the damaged CD.

Girl Overboard - The Love we Make | Sung by: Lisa Schouw
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For 8 very long years I have been hunting this song down…I exhausted just about every avenue to look for it as it seems it isnt anywhere on the net, not even the lyrics, just nada…

Lyrics:

On the streets of pity
They ride the circus train
From the heart of the city
If it beats well it beats in vain
someone light a candle to keep out the cold
they’re begging on the corner
you know they’re praying for gold
go down when the fire dies to watch the rivers rise….

Without the love we make our backs will break and the walls will come tumbling down
Without the love we make our world will shake and the walls will come tumbling down

Make way for the keeper its not safe inside
Crashes of/on the window/s like a rackless tide
pray under the strangest skies to watch the river rise

Without the love we make our backs will break and the walls will come tumbling down
Without the love we make our world will shake and the walls will come tumbling down

Without the love we make our backs will break and “the walls will come tumbling down” Back Singers
Without the love we make our world will shake and “the walls will come tumbling down” Back singers

Well on the streets of pity
they ride the circus trains
from the heart of the city
if it beats well it beats in vain

Without the love we make our backs will break and the walls will come tumbling down
Without the love we make our world will shake and the walls will come tumbling down
Without the love we make our backs will break and the walls will come tumbling down
Without the love we make our world will shake and the walls will come tumbling down
…..Continues on acouple more times until song finishes.

And now the song itself:

Right Click and select “Save As” to save it to your computer.

NOTICE: If by Request of the Artist or Record Company who owns this Song and Lyrics, please contact me at zack.kostevc@gmail.com with a notice of removal and I will do so as I have respect for the Artists Music and Performances.

http://shankspub.info/Girl_Overboard _The_Love_We_Make.mp3

And the Music Video to; The Love We Make:

http://shankspub.info/The_Love_We_Make.flv
PLEASE READ: Comments on this post have now been disabled. Spams Bots are quite annoying. Thanks to everyone who helped with finding the Artists name and Band Name